Feeling Terrible…

Last night, I stayed up until around 2 am eastern watching the results of the election, constantly trying to hold at least a little hope that Hillary would pull through and win. But, alas, it didn’t happen and has left me afraid for my future, everyone who is lgbt+s’ future, and the country as a whole. Donald Trump has been openly anti-lgbt+ (even while hold up a rainbow flag, like that makes much difference) and I worry what this means towards marriage equality and people like me who are transitioning.

I understand some of the reasons why people would vote for Trump, but even so, I am downright terrified about what’s going to happen to transgender rights with his presidency.  I’ve heard some people claim it will be just like going back to the George W. Bush days, so hopefully we’ll all be able to go through these times like people did then, but I’m still nervous. Personally, I was planning on going full time at work (already full time at school) at the beginning of the year, but with this news it makes me want to sooner so I can hopefully be more prepared and actually be able to get my legal documents changed to female.

With all this in mind though, I have calmed down a bit from when I first realized Trump was probably going to win.  I seriously thought about going out and buying a bunch of sleeping pills since I was so depressed with the news. I’ve gotten a bit better now though, with the help of reading about how I can definitely still go out of country to get surgeries that are cheaper, and with the hope that the president after Trump will hopefully be more lgbt+ friendly and better for the country as a whole.

In the meantime, however, I’ll try not to improve my mood by just impulse buying clothes and another cosplay online.